Alaska

Sorry it has been so long since I've been on but we still don't have internet at the house yet. And so much has happened!!

The plane ride to get home was quite horrendous. Orlando to Seattle wasn't bad at all but once we were boarding our plane in Seattle we found that there were computer problems and the hour layover turned into nine and I was with my poor dog, Molly. Luckily I was able to get her out of her crate and let her go potty and spend a couple hours with me. Once we finally boarded it was another 6 and a half hour flight to our final destination. By the time we were home I had been traveling for 24 hours and had only gotten four hours of sleep in the last 48. So I quickly fell asleep in my love's arms.

That weekend was actually a three day weekend for his base and we spent the weekend getting me the proper cold weather gear, shopping for the house, meeting a few of his buddies and setting up the house and kitchen the way we liked it. The following week he went back to work and I began cleaning and turning the house into our home.

It was a lot of fun. I brought all my CD's with me and jammed out as I vaccumed and dusted and lit my favorite candle, and Molly followed me everywhere. Now having the previous night's dishes in the sink is a huge "mess" to me. Molly is adjusting really well up here. I think she loves the time spent with Shawn and I, whether it's while I'm cleaning, we're watching tv, or whatever she is very content. Not to mention she's getting fat with all the treats we give her and not being able to excercise much...although I must admit there are days when I feel like I'm not far behind her.

Shawn and I have hung out a few times with various friends of his and we even have a couple that we hang out with on occasion. They're really nice. The wife and I get along really well and I think that we could become good friends if we took the time to get to know one another and hang out.

Other than that things have taken on a certain rhythm up until last week, but we'll get to that in just a second. Basically Shawn would go to work and I would sleep in until 9:30 or so then get up watch The Real Housewives of OC then clean the house and think about what I wanted to make for dinner. Shawn would come up we would hang out for a little bit then I would get into the kitchen and have fun cooking that night's meal. Then we would curl up in our campfire furniture and watch a movie. And it went on like this for two weeks and I became very bored. But then we went to Anchorage for Shawn's surgery and that kept me busy for about a week, and now he's finally feeling well enough that today we are out and about handling different errands and basically spending the day out of the house. So we went to some office on post and took care of the paperwork that allows for his stuff to be shipped up here and now we're at the library and I'm able to catch up with all of you while he takes care of a couple of business matters. :)

AND I am calling about a job today that's less than two miles from our house and I think would be awesome for me. Actually before I get into that I was originally thinking about not getting a job (we live comfortably without it) and doing volunteer work and being able to focus 100% on school. But I think I would become really bored once he deploys and that's not good. So I was kind of browsing Craigslist and saw this ad for a Montessori School that needs an Assistant in the afternoon and so this afternoon I'm going to inquire about the position and see if I am qualified and maybe get an interview or something. I think it would be really good for me, exposing me to people other than military and being around children. Plus it gives me one more network of friends and companions when Shawn's away. So I'm pretty excited about it.

I think that basically covers it. We're still looking into internet and such but hopefully in the next two weeks I'll be able to post from home (I'm at the library now) and be able to keep you guys updated a bit more often. Hope all of you are doing well and remember to tell your friends about this blog, I would love to be able to share my journey with as many people as possible. :)

Less than 48 hours and I'll be "home"

Well in 48 hours I will be heading to my new home with my wonderful dog and husband. It's just about surreal. Unfortunately though I've had "Aunt Flo" and it's been one of the worse cycles I've had in years, excruciating pain in my back and legs along with headaches and nausea. So needless to say I wasn't able to accomplish anything today except taking tylenol and getting Molly's vet records taken care of and getting her a new tag and collar. Tomorrow is going to be a long day of getting everything finished that I wasn't even able to start today. Then after everything is finished I have to bring it all over to my in-laws because that is where everything is being picked up. I'm praying that I'll be able to accomplish it all and still have dinner at my aunt and uncle's, spend time with my best friend, and not lose my mind. I am so unprepared to leave. Ugh.

On another note I'm not sure when I'll have internet in my house so this may be the last post for a little while, unless I post tomorrow night or on the plane.

I'm going to miss everyone so much. Laughing with the girls and mom at the diner making fun of the rude patrons that come in. Catching up on the latest gossip about everyone in town. Working with some of the best friends I've ever had at RL. Getting out of the house spur of the moment and heading to my best friends place. Grabbing sushi and dessert with my girlfriends from work. Being able to crawl into my Mom's bed when I'm not feeling well. Being able to call Mom and meeting at the diner. Coming home and getting into another argument with Dad about how silly I'm being about being insistent upon moving there now and not waiting until after February. Fighting with my sister about whose shirt she's wearing. Tripping over a dog. Riding one of the horses. And the hundred other things I've gotten used to doing that I won't be able to.

As the hours tick by and I'm faced with this overwhelming move I begin to doubt exactly what I'm doing. Is this really what's best for me? for Molly? For Shawn and I? And although I know it is, I'm still stressed and worried about everything. I'm looking forward to this new adventure and I'm so excited to finally be with my husband on a day in and day out basis. I'm hoping that Molly will adjust fine. I'm hoping she'll find that she enjoys the snow and I'm really hoping that I'll be able to spend more time with her. Taking her to Petco, in the car for rides, on walks (once it warms up) and bascially just enjoying having her around and maybe a second dog if Shawn and I decide we have the time, energy, and money for another dog. I do worry about if Molly will be OK without another dog around. She's never been without a companion before, so that worries me a little bit.

Other than that everything is going well. I'm praying that I get some good sleep tonight and that tomorrow I wake-up refreshed and re-energized in order to accomplosh everything. I think I'll be able to. I really do. Between 2 tylenol and a "you can't take me down" attitude I'll be able to get everything finished in time. But right now it's off to bed and to dream about moving into my new home with my wonderful husband and puppy and embarking on this new journey. Sleep tight everyone!

UPDATE

Well just to catch everyone up I will be moving to Alaska in four days. Yes. Four. I almost can't believe it. I leave on Friday at 8:20 AM with my wonderful puppy and I. Am. _______ (insert emotion here) because that's as accuarte as you're going to get. I've experienced a myriad of emotions; everything from sadness, to excitement, to bitterness, and everything in between. I really don't think it's hit me yet to be quite honest. Shawn is already moving into our house and is super excited and can't wait to be there; he's like a two year old colt on the first day of winter. I on the other hand am like a 20 year old mare on the hottest day of summer. And he wants so badly for me to be jumping up and down for joy and I'm really trying but without it hitting me I feel like I'll be up there for a couple of days to see him and then be boarding a plane to come home. It's like I told Shawn last night. Friday through Sunday I'll be fine. We'll be shopping and spending time together but then come Monday when he leaves for work I think it will all hit me like a ton of bricks and that's when the adjustment period will begin. So I'll keep you all informed on how things are progressing and what my emotions are. I did promise everything. :)

Sleep well my friends and I'll talk to you soon.

Waiting more days, Molly, and just random stuff

Well it's been a trying couple of days. I was supposed to be leaving by Tuesday of next week but because of paperwork it's been pushed until at least Friday of next week. I still am going to have my last shift at work be on Sunday but basically take the next week and pack and clean and organize better than I would have previously been able to. But that's about the only upside I can see in this whole scenario. Everything else is just frustrating, upsetting, and putting Shawn and I at our wits end. Which is not a good thing because that just means that I tend to be more emotional and easily hurt and he is less careful about how he words things and both of us get upset and then it's just not good. Lol. Not to mention it affects a group of other factors and people. My mom is trying to hold it together with the fact I'm leaving, Dad goes back and forth to being "ok" and being really really not ok, my sister goes back and forth between being really mad I'm leaving to excited about being able to drive on her own, and I get all ready and set on leaving one day and then it's changed to four days later; so there is a lot of tension in the house and everyone is ready for things to return back to normal.

On a different note I only have four shifts left before my last day. Saturday night is my going away party with all of my friends from work and then Sunday is a good-bye dinner with my Dad's kids, my sister and brother and their family. So those will be fun and I'm really looking forward to them.

Everything else is going well. I'm trying to get things in line to get Molly ready to go as well. We're going to bring her up the same day I'm going which wasn't what was in the cards initially. We were going to wait until we got settled and had a bit more money to make it happen. But I found airfare for Molly at $100 which is less (by $264) than the first airfare I found. So yay.

I guess that's about it really. Other than that I took the day off from everything yesterday and today I went puppy shopping with my friend for her. And Shawn said we could get a Husky once I move, and once everything is settled and we feel like we can handle and properly care for and spend time with a puppy. Although I must admit...I really want a puppy. Lol. But I do want to see what it's like to have just one dog in the house, I've never been without at least three. So I am kind of interested to see if maybe I could do it, although I don't think I will. Lol. Anyway I'm gonna go now and enjoy a yummy pizza with my sister and Dad and then going to get a new outfit for work tomorrow night. Sleep well and have an awesome weekend.

Hello New Year

Well, it's officially the new year. I just about can't believe it. There's still moments that I don't feel like Christmas has come and gone yet. It's like the last couple of months have flown by. And to think that in 9 days I'll be leaving for Alaska is just about unreal. In fact I'm still not packed all that much, and I think I only have one day off from work next week. lol. Yay! Well I figure that if I can plan a wedding in a month I can pack and get everything ready to go in a week.



On a good note I've actually had a blast with my BFFE. We went out to a local town center and when we git there there's this carnival thing so we're sitting in the truck and I'm like we should go to the carnival...and she's like we should? And I'm like yes, we can act like kids, not get in trouble for it, and eat food that's awful for us, what could go wrong?! So that's what we did and we had a blast. :)



Mom and I have also done some hanging out. We watched "Going the Distance" the other, and what a funny movie!! Although, a bit inappropriate. Lol. Either way we laughed and hung out during that movie. And then last night after work a couple girls, one of the guy's we work with, and I went over to the Ale House and grabbed a bite and hung. Which was a ton of fun. Full of laughter and just good fun.



So basically I'm just trying to make it around to everyone one more time before I leave, and if everything goes according to plan I'll be boarding my plane in about 8 days. And I will admit that I think it's all beginning to hit me that everything is happening. I really am moving to Alaska. There's moments where I feel like I've awoken from a dream to find that I'm married and moving 5000 miles away. My Dad has really had a hard time dealing with me leaving, and although I think a lot of it has to do with the weather and conditions I'll be having to face I do think that it would be difficult for him no matter where I went. My mom on the other hand is holding it together just fine...so it seems. I have a feeling that she's just doing a really good job of hiding it. She mentioned earlier in the week when I made a comment about how "fine" she was about everything she said that if she fell a part and I saw that I wouldn't be able to do what I feel like I need to do. And when she worded it that way I think she's right. Dad has always had an iron fist with me whereas Mama and I have always been best friends and had a much more "free" relationship and so her and I are much much closer than I think most mom's and daughter's are and so I think that if I saw her falling a part I would be tempted to make the decision to stay or at least drag the process out. Sooo I suppose she has a point.



On another sidenote I bought my new phone today for my new plan with Shawn. It's the Droid Incredible and I think I'm going to love it. It's super sleek and fancy. :)



OH!! I forgot to tell you guys I found $100 airfare for my Miss. Molly, my labx. So she will be coming up to Alaska the same time I will.



We've also moved back into my old room. At first it was because my little camper trailer was just not cutting it in the cold snaps we had, but now I think it's kind of my way of saying good bye to this house, this room, and the girl who grew up here and saying hello to the new adventure, new house, and new woman who got her wings from here. But enough of that because I really don't want a sappy blog. lol.

Anyway ladies and gents it's my last day singing at church tomorrow and I need to rest. So I'm off to bed. Sleep tight and sweet dreams. :)